Started with the weirdness of the christmas day celebration. it was weird one. I was offering my boyfriend to have christmas together with his kid and his ex (the kid mother). she refused. sometimes I felt like she treated me as someone he cheat on. but from my boyfriend point of view, it wasn’t about us. it more about she worries that i will took over her motherhood towards her child. they don’t have a good relationship and the child doesn’t want to live with mummy. Despite on anything else, the father is barely become a bad cop in the family and by then, the mother trying her best to gave whatever the child one. in this case, making it no boundaries at all. she can sleep at midnight on school night and sleep about 2 or 3am in the morning on holiday. what time did she wakes up? the earliest she’ll be wake up mostly about 12 or 1pm in the afternoon. did that no boundaries thing helps her to gain love from the child? nope….nothing, she never appreciate every single thing about her mum. all she saw is how mum insulted her when she didn’t get the love she wanted from her own child, her only child. can’t blame her for that, because its the fact.
right…continue…
on christmas day I did my own christmas with my girls. I am lucky to have them this christmas and not having them on boxing day. we decided to have a video call when opening the present. my bf and his kid enjoyed it. the kid push the mother to said thank you to me (I gave present for her, I didn’t expect anything back. not even a thank you, just because I just think its a nice thing to do, especially she just an ex right? so i am sure he allowed to move on. right?), it took them 4 attempts to get her to see me. she finally sees me without I even prepared about my self. it was a shock and I just wing it, full of smile and cheerful despite on what had happened between us (full of gossip about me by her sister) and what she probably has believes about me at that point. She didn’t even sit down, she was standing up and looks like gonna go straight after I finished talking. I kept talking and smiling till I actually run out topic. we said bye and I considered that as went really well.
New years eve coming…
we started 2021 with a drama. I was literally saying happy new year to my self whilst I looked across the window. it hurts. you guys must thought that I spent time new years eve with him right? no I didn’t. well, its not fair to put it that way. I did spent time with him through video call, BUT when we did the count down….things happen. His child wanted to spend the night with us doing the last second of countdown, the child mother open the door and he turn the camera off. she was so mad looking her child with the dad for new years transition together. instead of just chilled about it, she was angry so so much about it, she assume things, the child cried and the father gets insulted. he didn’t do anything apart of video call with me and just enjoying tie to each other. I was like “why you even insulted him?” so ungrateful…I hate it! and guess what? she didn’t even say sorry. not even after he mentioned her about it. She just gave him 1000s reason to not going to help her. He still going to help her of course. he is not mean person and always be kind.
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